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Readings for September
*Because many of the writers serve in secure countries, their full names are not listed. September 1
"If you understand English, please don't hang up," I pleaded desperately into the telephone. I didn't know whose sleepy voice had answered the phone at 3:00 a.m. Two hours earlier three of us had arrived at the train station in Nurnberg, Germany, from Eastern Europe. My sister had expected to pick us up earlier in the day. We had been unable to reach her from our previous stop. She had no way of knowing we had arrived unless we could reach her by phone. For two hours we tried to use the German phone system. Unknown to us, the procedure for dialing within the area was different from calling in from outside Germany. Now, in desperation, I had dropped in some coins, pushed buttons at random and waited, hoping for someone with knowledge of my language to answer. "Please don't hang up, we're stranded at the bahnhof." I sensed the mental struggle of the woman as she tried to understand me and respond so I could follow her instructions. At last I knew I should drop the first digit. I thanked her profusely for staying on the line with me. In a few moments I was talking with my brother-in-law. Within 30 minutes a familiar car pulled up outside the station. Sleep would follow soon after. Lord, are there any changes I need to make in my methods of trying to reach those to whom you've sent me? Beverly, an American, is a Bible teacher and author, who leads YWAM Writer's Seminars. She lives in the United States. September 2 The peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus, Philippians 4:7. Our family is sleeping peacefully to the gentle rocking of our 48-foot houseboat on the Purus River of Brazil's Amazon basin. My sleep is interrupted by the voices of men calling out from a small boat. My husband, Kent, goes to the rail to talk with them. I silently pray, asking God to meet whatever need they have. I also secretly hope their need doesn't involve my nursing skills I dread middle of the nights house calls, but willingly go when asked. Kent returns and I learn a woman has been in labor for five days. I dress and board the small canoe. Only after we're on our way do I survey my circumstances. There are no lights. The two men I'm with are total strangers. Once again, I focus my thoughts on my heavenly Father. "Lord, I'm doing Your work, in Your name. Protect me, tonight. Give the woman a safe delivery and let the baby be healthy." Hours later I try to doze as the canoe makes its way back up river. I think of Kent and his ministry to these seven hundred tribes-people living nearby. My mind wanders to our four young children. I remember the laundry needing to be done at the river's edge after the sun rises. I whisper a prayer for strength to do the day's work with a body lacking normal sleep. I offer thanks for a healthy child born during the night. And I thank Him for protecting me during my night-time journey, and for His peace that accompanied me the whole way. Josephine, an Australian, does church planting and health care work in Brazil. September 3 Don't be deceived, my dear brothers. Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the father of the heavenly, lights, James 1:16,17. I was single until I was 27-years-old, traveling from country to country as a missionary-evangelist. I longed for a wife and hated being alone. I remember standing on top of the Eiffel Tower, looking out over Paris. The view was stunning, and in my excitement I turned to remark on the beautiful panorama--but no one was there. I felt truly alone. While I was still in Bible school I had discovered the passage in I Corinthians 7 where Paul said it was a gift to be single. I sincerely hoped that God wasn't planning to give this gift to me! Time went by. Then I came to understand that this Scripture in 1 Corinthians was not to be skipped over and left for someone else. I responded by placing my right to be married on the altar. That was a phrase I learned from my parents--putting something on the "altar" was another way of saying, "I give up my right." I told God, "Okay. I'm willing to never get married, if that is Your will." An amazing thing happened. There was a new freedom. No longer was I preoccupied with what I jokingly referred to as The Search. I was able to concentrate on what God wanted me to do next. A few months later, as I continued pursuing God's call on my life, my path crossed with that of a vivacious blond in Redwood City, California. She had also just laid her desire to be married "on the altar." God brought us together. In God's right time, if He sees you can be more fulfilled and effective for Him with a life partner than without, He'll bring the very one that is right for you and for His Kingdom. From Winning God's Way by Loren Cunningham with Janice Rogers. Copyright 1988 by Loren Cunningham. Published by YWAM Publishing, Seattle, Washington. Used by permission. [from pages 30-31] September 4 The devil said to him, "If you are the Son of God, tell this stone to become bread." Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone,'" Luke 4:3,4 NIV. It's not surprising that Jesus was hungry after 40-days without food, and the devil was out to tempt Him on this vulnerable point. For Jesus, the temptation was to ask why He should deny Himself. At first glance it is difficult to see how something as commonplace as eating could possibly be wrong. The human reaction would be to go ahead and eat. We are usually most tempted by things that seem quite ordinary. Old habits die hard. God has called us all to abstinence in one form or another. We have all had to say "no" to things that hinder our walk with God. Perhaps we have stopped smoking or refrained from watching too much television to allow us more time with our family and with the Lord. Jesus' answer is wise. He doesn't condemn eating. He simply states God's Word that a man should make his relationship with God the most central thing in his life: ...”man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord,” Deuteronomy 8:3 NIV . Give me a greater hunger for Your Word, Father. I want to thirst for it above all else. Paul, from England, works in Out-Going Ministry in Spain. September 5 Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my heands, Isaiah 49: 15-16. We prayed that morning for God to use us specifically in someone's life who spoke English. For five days we had walked the busy streets, enjoying the sights, sounds and smells of the Chinese city, but without a contact. We were startled by man's voice, "Hello, you speak English?" We scanned the crowd for a Western-looking face but saw none. Again we heard his voice, "English! You speak English?" We saw a man grinning at us. He was taller than most Chinese men, and had a distinctive look about him. He pushed through the crowds toward us and we saw excitement on his face. We, too, were thrilled with our answer to prayer. He eagerly questioned us as to where we were from, what we do, and why we were in China. We learned he was from a city in the far northern part of China and had come to this city to study English. He was delighted to be able to practice it on us. We recognized his name as being an Asian version of a Bible name. We showed the man his name in our English/Chinese Gospel. His eyes jumped across to the Chinese writing on the opposing page and he nodded in acknowledgment. He laughed with delight when we told him he would find his name in other places in the book also. We took his picture, exchanged addresses and gave invitations to visit in one another's homes. In the years since that encounter God has often brought the man's face before me. I pray that God will continue to bring Christians across his path. Perhaps, even now, he is leading others to the One who led him to us. Beverly, an American, is a Bible teacher who leads YWAM Writer's Seminars. She lives in California, USA. September 6 See that you do not look down on one of these little ones....Your Father in heaven is not willing that not one of these little ones should be lost, Matthew 18:10, 14. Skip had AIDS. When I first met him I mentioned in passing that I was a Christian missionary. Adamantly he responded, "Never, ever say anything to me about God, Jesus or the church. If you do, our relationship will be terminated at that point." I thought, Why bother with someone so bitter toward God? I was about to walk away from him when I sensed the Lord's love for Skip. He wanted to work in Skip's life. So began a journey of serving Skip for seven long months without talking about Jesus. it would not be what I said, but my life that would make the impact. One day during my quiet time I sensed God wanted me to make chicken soup for Skip. Why must I make it instead of my wife? I didn't understand, but obeyed, stumbling through the process. When I took it to him, I simply said that I made the soup for him. He knew I was married and my wife could have made it. The next time I saw Skip he asked why I brought the soup. I told him about my prayer time, the impression from God, and the result of making the soup. Only then did he tell me that before I arrived with the soup, he had a craving for homemade chicken soup. AIDS victims often lose their appetite. This opened the door for me to share more with Skip about God and his need for Jesus. After seven months of showing God's love to Skip, I was called to the hospice to be with him in those final hours. This would be my last opportunity to talk with him about eternity. In his room were his lover, the director of the hospice, the nurse and someone from New Age. I prayed silently. Within eight minutes the room was cleared. I bent close to him and spoke softly. Skip repented. The others soon returned. Thirty minutes later Skip passed into the arms of Jesus. Lord, help me to understand the impact of simple steps of obedience. John, an American, serves as the U.S. Southwest Director for YWAM. September 7 O Jerusalem Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your chidlren together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing, Matthew 23:37. I had worked for seven months, serving Skip who was dying of AIDS. The afternoon he died I was able to lead him to Christ. I returned to my home late that afternoon having gone through one of the most emotional days I have ever had. I got as far as my living room wall and began to weep over the agonizing experience of those months. I heard myself saying to God that I couldn't handle all this pain. If ministry to people with AIDS was going to be like this, I wasn't sure whether I wanted it. In the next few moments I heard the following words that I believe every Christian longs to hear. I sensed the heart of God saying, "Now you know a little of how I feel!" I had prayed for years to know how God feels over those who don't know Him. God answered that prayer in a way I could never have imagined. It took serving a young man dying of AIDS to understand, in a greater way, God's unconditional love that is deeply broken over lost souls. Now I am more determined and more committed to see people dying of AIDS, and the lost at large, ushered into the kingdom of God. Help me never to lose sight of Your love for the lost, Lord. John, an American, serves as U.S. Southwest Director for YWAM. September 8 Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone, Romans 12:17,18 NIV. Any planning we do for spending time together working on the vital ingredients of a good marriage should include an honest discussion of our individual expectations. We often misunderstand one another because we don't know what our partner is expecting. Of course we must also be willing to make adjustments along the way. Frequently our expectations are totally unrealistic. When Floyd and I were newly married I had my own clear idea of what a perfect marriage should be. lt included constant harmony and no disagreeing. Unfortunately Floyd and I were too human to live up to that ideal. We had to have a very open discussion of our expectations and whether or not they were realistic. Mine weren't! I had to make some very strategic adjustments. I once saw an article on marriage called "Marriage License--a Learner's Permit." Just as we have to learn to drive a car, so we have to learn to guide our marriages. We may have to turn a little to the right or left to avoid some bumps, and we may need to slow down to keep us from crashing. Divorce courts are filled with couples who haven't learned to make the necessary adjustments. We must plan for time together to grow in our relationship and understanding of one another. Time spent together is an investment--there are rich dividends from it. From Where Will I Find the Time? by Sally McClung. Copyright 1989 by Sally McClung. Published by Harvest House Publishers, Eugene, Oregon. Used by Permission. [from pages 41-42] September 9 Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these, Matthew 19:14 NIV. I was alone early in the morning on my first day with the street children in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil. I met nine filthy, smelly kids. Most wore no shoes or shirts. I knew the love I felt was God's love for them. I thought, I'd love to take them to that park. I just want them to be children. I'd been told they weren't allowed to enter the park, but I asked God to make it possible. We just walked in and no-one stopped us! We sang and danced. Suddenly I remembered the mental picture of ten months earlier. What a joy! The children ran and chased the ducks. Suddenly five wardens arrived. The chief demanded, "Get out!" The children started crying. One little boy in particular stood there looking up at the man. I guessed he was saying in Portuguese, "Please, leave us alone. For the first time in a long time we are really happy and having a nice time." The man only barked, "Get out!" I could see hatred in his eyes and understood that the enemy was using the authorities against the children. Dejected, we started to leave. Then I heard in my mind, Jesus' voice say, "Sarah, they are only children." I turned around and the chief guard also stopped and was turning. When I reached him, the children in tow, I repeated the words Jesus had spoken. "They are only children." Suddenly he called one of the guards and said, "Go with them as they go round the park." The totally bemused guard escorted us in the park. It was all I could do, not to burst out laughing! Sarah, from England, works with street children in Brazil. September 10 The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want, Psalm 23:1 NIV. How often have we read that verse and not fully been aware of its meaning. As a child growing up, it was one of the first my parents had me memorize. I repeated it hundreds of times, yet it wasn't until I left home and became a full-time missionary that I realized what it said. Now it is no longer in my head, but it is in my heart as well. A shepherd knows each one of his sheep by name. When a sheep falls on its back and can't get up, the shepherd comes and sets it up right. When the sheep's wool is thick and beautiful, the shepherd shears it off. He gives the wool to those who might be cold or needy so that others can also benefit from it. The shepherd is always watchful and takes his sheep to the best areas for food and drink. He never lets his flock go away thirsty. Sometimes he takes his sheep where the trail is difficult and the terrain is hard. But he knows what is best and he will never lead his followers astray. The shepherd tries to keep his sheep together. When one wanders away, the shepherd goes off and searches for the lost sheep. When he finds him, he returns him to the fold for strength, comfort, and companionship. In YWAM, there are times when we aren't in the finest fields and the weather is unpleasant. Sometimes we don't get the best food or have a soft place to lay our heads. Many times we are surrounded by spiritual wolves. But in all those times, our Shepherd is right there with us and we can honestly say that we lack for nothing. Brian, an America, directs YWAM's Language School in Helsinki, Finland. September 11 The Lord is a refuge...in times of trouble. Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you, Psalm 9:9-10 NIV. It was the middle of the night and I was over the Middle East. Most of the plane's passengers were sleeping or attempting to sleep. I was writing a letter. Unexpectedly, the captain told us we would soon make an unscheduled stop at Bahrain in the Persian Gulf. I had flown enough to know that something was wrong. I asked the flight steward for an explanation. He responded rather tensely, "It's all right, lady. Everything's going to be okay." I persisted by assuring him I had absolutely no fear, and would appreciate knowing the cause of the change of plans. His response was the same. Despite his effort, his eyes betrayed fear. Aware of recent hi-jacking incidents and bomb threats on international flights, I asked outright, "Is there a bomb scare?" When I assured him I would not tell any of the other passengers, he nodded in affirmation. I returned to my seat. I knew I was in the center of God's will--the safest place at any time. A peace settled on me. I committed everyone on the plane into God's hands and trusted Him completely. I resumed writing my letter, totally relaxed. As we were landing we were instructed, without explanation, not to leave the plane under any circumstances. Five minutes later the order was reversed and we were told to take all our belongings and leave the plane. After 45-minutes at this small, remote airport we all reboarded and resumed our journey through the night--without incident. The crew knew of potential danger and were fearful. The passengers were ignorant and perplexed. Many were disgruntled at being prematurely disturbed. I was fascinated by the whole situation, knowing that God had given me a unique opportunity to prove the truth of His Word. Joy, a former New Zealander but an American citizen for many years, is an International Bible Teacher. September 12 Your Father knows what you need before you ask him, Matthew 6:8. Just that morning my husband and I had been looking through the classified ads for a place to live. We knew it might be difficult to find because we needed it for only a short time. As we walked toward the YWAM office a man pulled off the street loading discarded odd-and-ends into his camper. We were intrigued and stopped to talk with him. He was looking for someone to live for a short time in a house he was restoring. He expressed trust once he learned we were YWAMers. We only would need to pay $200 to move in and $100 per month. I couldn't believe my ears as I listened to his description of the house: a stone fireplace, newly polished wood floors, a large backyard with fruit trees. We prayed that night and asked God to show us His will. The very next night we received a totally unexpected check for $200. We knew in our hearts that God was leading us. We moved the next week and began to look for summer employment. Nothing came through until we returned from a short trip. Both of us were hired to work for the U.S. Census Bureau. Not until they asked for our home address did we learn that we would be working directly across the street from our new home. We often had opportunity to tell our co-workers about God's provision for us when they learned where we were living. God certainly had a plan that day when we talked to a stranger parked at the curb that day. Sandy, an American, teaches at YWAM’s Christian Heritage School in Tyler, Texas, USA. Septermber 13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love, I Corinthians 13:13 NIV. When we think about this verse, we think of love, God's love for us and His commandment to love our neighbors as ourselves. Or we think of the type of faith that Abraham and Moses had or other heroes of the Bible. Too often we forget about hope. But hope has its place among these three things that remain. In Romans we read: "We also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us,” Romans 5:3-5 NIV. The hope of the world lies in things which perish--a better job, a higher income, a bigger car, a larger house. In contrast, the hope that God offers us is divine and eternal. He shows us a glimpse of heaven with us as people of His household, citizens of His Kingdom. This hope is a gift from God to His children. If we are not experiencing this hope in our lives, we can ask the Lord to reveal what He longs to give us so we can experience Ephesians 1:18, "The eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints." Paul admonished us to be joyful in hope. Jesus said that He came to give us peace. The two go together. Without hope, we can never fully know peace. So let us place our hope in God's promise of eternal life. Dear Lord, teach me to hope in You. Philippe, a Swiss, works in the video ministry, in Lausanne, Switzerland. September 14 I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you (Psalm 119:11 NIV).
Danny Lehmann, an American, directs the
YWAM base in Honolulu, Hawaii, USA, and travels extensively in a
teaching ministry. From Before You Hit the Wall, by Danny
Lehmann. Copyright 1991. Published by YWAM Publishing. Seattle,
Washington. Used by Permission. [from pages 9-70-71] September
15 You will see neither wind
nor rain, yet this valley will be filled with water, and you, your
cattle and
your other animals will drink. This is an easy thing in the eyes of the
Lord
(II Kings
In YWAM each
worker trusts the Lord for his
or her support. This usually comes through individuals or congregations
who
believe in the worker and make a commitment to pray and financially
support the
worker.
"Give
and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken
together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the
measure you use, it will be measured to you," Luke 6:38.
I was about seven-years-old when
YWAM first
learned of the property in
Our time of
evangelism in
September
20 And he made known to us
the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he
purposed in
Christ (Ephesians 1:9). After our
Discipleship Training School (DTS)
on board YWAM's emegency relief ship, the m/v
Anastasis, my wife and I felt a
strong calling to the Mercy Ships office in Robert, an American,
directs the Mercy Ship Support Office in
September 21 "Jesus wept," John 11:35 When Michael applied to
attend a Discipleship Training Schoo, he voluntarily told us that he
was HIV positive. After prayerful consideration and consultation with
the staff and other students, we welcomed him. John, an American, works
as U.S. Southwest Director for YWAM. September 22 The steps of a man are
established by the Lord; and He delight in his way, Psalm 37:23 NASB Our outreach
team was in southern Now we were
two days late and it was after Soon a young
man walked by who understood a
few words of English. He motioned for us to follow. He led us to the
post
office where two women were at the telephone. They were Americans,
visiting
with their mother who wanted them to see the home town she hadn't seen
in 30
years. We didn't learn how the man knew they were there. One of the
women wrote a note in Albanian
listing our friend's name and his village. While some local men
unsuccessfully
tried to locate our friend, three policemen approached our van. We were
relieved to hear they weren't going
to arrest us. They were simply nervous about our safety and wanted us
to move
closer to the police station so they could protect us. After reading
our Albanian
note, the police chief and another officer, who spoke some English,
drove us to
find our friend. Awakened
out of a sound sleep by two
policemen, our friend listened intently to the tale of how God led us
to him.
Even when we had no idea where we were going, we were never out of His care. Sandy, an American,
works with Slavic Ministries September 23 As a prisoner
for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you
have
received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one
another
in love (Ephesians 4:1-2 NIV). Did Jesus
say, "By this shall all men
know that you are my disciples, because you have the same statement of
doctrine"? No, He said they would know we belonged to Him because of
our
love for one another. I heard a
Baptist minister on a cassette tape
once, speaking about this. He told how God called him to minister among
Catholics in Dr. D. G.
Barnhouse was a respected Presbyterian
theologian and the editor of Revelation, the precursor to Eternity
magazine.
Even though he had taught that Pentecostals were in error, he accepted
an
invitation late in his life to spend a week ministering among
Pentecostals.
Later he said, "I found that 95 percent of what they believe, I
believe.
Two percent was totally contradictory and three percent was in a hazy
area. I
decided that I could set aside my differences of five percent for any
brother
or sister in the Lord." The
body of Christ is a fellowship of those
who have found true liberty in Jesus Christ. As we walk in that
liberty, we
will find that He calls us to leave behind even the good things He has
given us
in order to find something greater--servanthood to His Great Commission
and unity
with others who are different, but love Him as we do.
September
24
Is anything
too hard for me? (Jeremiah 32:27 NIV). Shirley, the
booking agent in I received a
Scripture clearly confirming
that I was to go ahead. In While
waiting for the bus I explained my
situation to a friendly Chinese man. He said his sister was meeting him
at the
hotel, and that he would be glad to give me his hotel and meal vouchers. As we
arrived, his sister shared that she had
just received his letter that afternoon, and would not have known of is
arrival
without it. He checked me in the hotel, and handed me his vouchers. God then led
me to go directly to see the
president of China Airlines. After a brief discussion, his secretary
called the
person in charge at the airport and gave them clear orders that I was
to have
"first priority" standby, and special attention. It's fun to
walk in obedience to the Lord.
September 25 Now faith is being sure of
what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1 My Grandma
went to a camp retreat in the
redwoods of Grandma had
never seen the woman before. She
took the paper, put it in her pocket and thanked her. When she looked
at it
later, the paper was a check for $55. Grandma prayed about what she was
to do
with the money and felt she should send it to me. I had been
in Immediately,
I went to the travel agent to
buy my ticket. She told me the fare had been raised $50 because the
discounted
price hadn't been paid by the required date. Later, I
went to a prayer meeting and shared
about Grandma's check and the increased fare. In light of all that had
happened, I was looking forward to seeing how God would provide the
$50. I
wasn't expecting the answer I received that night. After the
meeting, a couple asked me to visit
with them. They wrote out a check for the remaining $50.00. Off I went
to spend
a joyous holiday with my family. I didn't know this would be my last
Christmas
with Grandma. She died the following year.
September 26 Finally, all
of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as
brothers, be
compassionate and humble. I Peter 3:8 To have any
quality friendship there must be
freedom to be ourselves, freedom to be open and honest, and freedom to
share
everything. That freedom can only exist when there is trust, security
and
confidence in the marriage relationship. Sensitivity
toward one another is a very
important part of friendship. I recently went through several weeks of
very
trying and difficult situations. I found myself crying a lot and
feeling
extremely vulnerable. Floyd had been away for most of this period, but
when he
came home he immediately sensed what I had been going through. He
helped me put
my coat on, led me out the door, and took me shopping for a special
little love
gift to encourage me. He's a very generous husband and has bought me
many gifts
through the years of our marriage, but this one was special. Not
because of
what it was, but because of the sensitivity it reflected. It didn't
take a lot
of time, but I still feel the "glow" of his love and care in response
to my need. Friendship
in our marriage is a wonderful
gift, and we must treasure it. We must both work at the friendship to
keep it
growing. We must take the time necessary for that. As we do, our joys
are
doubled and our burdens are halved. September
27 Ye thought evil against
me; but God meant it unto good (Genesis 50:20).
September
28 A YWAM team
from The packets
were accepted enthusiastically by
one young mother in her cardboard and nylon dwelling. She responded to
the gift
with groans and gestures. "She wanted
so badly to understand us
and to talk to us, but she couldn't," said Lisa King, who recognized
the
movements as similar to the deaf sign language she's learned at home. Lisa was the
only member of the 25-person
team visiting the area able to use sign language. She used her hands to
describe the Gospel to the woman. Then she and her friends performed a
short,
wordless drama. The team had prepared this presentation to explain the
Gospel
across the English-Spanish language barrier. They prayed
with the woman and helped her
plant the first seeds in her small garden. Later that day, they
returned and
met the woman's husband. He was delighted to meet someone who could
help him
better communicate with his wife. Lisa taught
him several basic signs and made
a simple set of hand-drawn deaf cards to leave further lessons behind
after the
group left. God had answered their earlier prayer for guidance to just
the
right house.
Jesus took bread,
gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to his disciples. Matthew
Jesus simply says to us, "Give Me
what you have; give me yourself." I
must answer, "Here I am, Lord. Take
me as I am." Jesus
took what was given to Him and gave
thanks. He didn't say it was too little. He didn't say it was
worthless. He
simply took it. Jesus takes what I give to Him. He takes my temper, my
old
character, my sin, my failure, my pride, and my abilities. He
thankfully takes everything. Then
He breaks it. He
breaks the power of sin. He breaks my
pride; he breaks my selfish character; He erases the stain of the past
and the
harmful effects of my temper. Jesus,
then took what He had broken and
gave it back to His disciples. "Use this to feed others," He said. This
is how He makes me into an active co-worker with Him. After
He has broken me, I become the
answer to the needs around me. I discover I have enough to give because
what I
give comes from His hand. Therefore, He alone deserves the credit. Could
lack of brokenness be the reason for
so little visible impact on the world by Christianity? The
view of dead grass outside reminded me of
my circumstances. Our three-year-old daughter had a painful mouth
infection;
two other children and I had a stomach virus causing continuous,
painful
cramping and diarrhea. Despite this my husband and I were writing final
exams
for the YWAM U of N School we were attending. Added to
this was the emotional trauma of
living in a foreign country and dealing with a foreign language. The
burden
seemed too heavy to carry. "God," I
cried. "I don't know
how I can manage another moment. Please help!" Suddenly I
heard someone singing, "Oh,
Come, Let Us Adore Him." I thought about the character of Jesus and His
loving Father. It struck me
like a lightening bolt: Jesus was
born in a barn. It was a dirty, smelly, lowly place that God chose to
reveal
His Son--a part of His very life. I realized
it is in "barnyard"
experiences that God chooses to reveal His life-changing truths. |